11.06.2010

if at first is sounded like rain inside of here
where only the whites of the eyes
opened and closed as i tried
to believe in god, watching
your hands tremble
hoping the walls could walk away
if memory was something you could plaster on them
and write pain in italics to
describe how silver the silver was

if at first i heard my heart beating
and yet heard nothing at all
between passing hours and streetlights
that flicker then fade

if bullets were malleable and
sunk in the flesh while i laughed
at your sweat drenched face
staining the worn denim that
disguised you as human
on the day it was seventy five and sunny
and people forgot how to cry

if fate wasn’t a shed stuffed with
victims of self depravation who know
nothing of souls like mine that yearn
to watch the leaves change color
and lick salt off my cheeks, sunken
from anguish at the image i see
in the mirror, of a ghost
i always was yet never discovered

if stars could bear witness to
the aging anguish of the world
that made me a statistic of the faces on our evening news

do you know where your kids are right now?

whose darling smiles exist only in pictures
you send out to people who pretend they care
and say they will do their best to find
those silky soiled locks whose
dusty distant laughter was only a sound
heard through the trees, yet still

if i never asked for it,
why then, could i tell you that
living tastes like lying under a naked bulb
begging to die?

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